Beat

I am exhausted...
These past 9 days have been the most physically draining days like ever...
Say a prayer I make it through...
Good news is I have been hired on through production...YAY!
Bay Area Reporter releases a feature article this week about my film and I...Hopefully it gets my true message across!

Day 1

Day 1...
Here it is...
A lil update for everyone. I quit my job at Plaza Research making very decent money and working with a great staff to take a temp. job because I couldn't pass it up. Though many questions are still unanwsered about how long this gig will go or how much work I'll be doing. The gig is for a MAJOR TV network working on staff for a new reality show being shot here in San Francisco. I am very excited about this and wish things could be different with Plaza but I just have to think long term and if things go well this gig could open doors for me that need to be opened. School is going well even though my mind isnt totally in it, I am still doing well and working my ass off doing the 1200 things I usually have going on. But I think about it...
y do so much!?
y continue this way?
I love it,
I wouldn't have it any other way...
This is who I am and I live and breathe being busy and working. I am lucky that I am this way because door after door opens for me.
Thank you...to myself I guess, I didn't learn from example from my parents or anyone else for that matter. Maybe growing up being surrounded by so much negative energy that I had no other choice but to turn it into positivity.
Thank god for that...
Guidance through example is the way...
Live and Learn...
Because living is learning...
Think about it!

PEACE!

Thank you

Responses about the article...
Many, many, many thanks to all of you...

You are one of those special people put on this earth to ensure happiness...with your new ventures out there, you will be very successful and people will want to be around you! -PL

Great Film!! I wish I had a church like that!! Its moving!! Made me cry it was so good. you are an awesome person. A role model for all GLBT people. Thanks for sharing that.
Patrick

A Really Nice Job On Your Video. Well Presented.
CJ.

Woody,
Great work!! I am glad to hear you sound so happy
Continued success and happiness.
Mr. Q, Papa Fred

Woody I'm so proud of you!!!! :)
You are such a great leader.I love these emails I get from you
telling me to support Glaad and raising all these important issues and
bringing them to our attention. Thanks!

I really enjoyed your film. It was beautiful and brought tears to my eyes. Thinking about all the people that go to that church that may feel they are unwelcome in that setting, it is great to know there is place for everyone to get together and feel loved. Great!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Natalie
P.S. I saw the link on Rosie's blog

Congrats Woody! I am so proud to know you!!!!!

I am so proud of you boo boo...you still impress me with all the amazing things you continue to accomplish. You are such a great role model. -adri

CONGRATS BABY!!!! I VOTED FOR YA!!!! I KNEW YOU WOULD BE A
SUCCESS!!!!!!!

Congratulations! It looks great! - Brian


MANY THANKS AGAIN! You guys make the things I do that much more worth it...
I am made up by each of you, and you all own a piece of me!
Thanks again...
One voice at a time, One heart at a time!

Article

http://www.academyart.edu/perspective/index.asp?CID=400

It's out...
Thanks AAU...
Supporting Diversity...

Just-In

Cujo gets new kidney...again...Get better BOO!
Paris' "Simple Life" gets the AX from FOX (Thank god!!)
Photos out from Demi and Ashtons wedding...SO CUTE!

Off to new things in my life...more details to come...slowly...

Stay tuned :O)

catching Tales

Jamie Cullum's New CD is freakin Brilliant...
Let me know whatcha think...
Open to discussion...
Open to Interpertation...

"Catch The Sun"

"Everday it comes to this
Catch the things that you might have missed
You say get back to yesterday
I aint ever going back
back to the place that I cant stand to stay
But I miss the way you lie
Im always misunderstood, pulled apart, and ripped in two
but I, I miss the way you lie
Catch the Sun, before its gone
Here it comes up in smoke and gone
Catch the sun, it never comes
Cry in the sand, lost in the fire

I never really understood
Why I didnt feel so good, but I
I miss the way you lie
I've always been up and down
Never wanted to hit the ground
But I miss the way you lie
Catch the sun.
before its gone
Here it comes up in smoker and gone
Catch the sun, it never comes
Cry in the sand, lost in the fire."



My mind
thinks
thinks
and clears...
without question

Helping

I love to Volunteer. Knowing I have helped in some way, in anyway, means just so much to me. I don't expect anything in return, I do it because I love it. I have been doing work for non-for-profits and other charitable organizations since I was 13...thats 11 years now. From Make-a-wish, the American Red Cross, United Way, Childrens Hospital, Childrens Miracle Network, SPCA, Tsunami Relief Fund, The ONE Campaign, Capital Pride, Empire State Agenda, LGBT groups of Upstate NY, GLSEN, Academy of Friends, GLAAD, SF Aids Foundation, SF Gay Pride, The Matthew Shephard Foundation, and my own that I ran for a short period of time...Friends With Pride. Most people don't get the value and meaning of their donated time and hard work, show dedication and honest and non-expecting love and it pays off in many ways...
I got this email...from a guy...who I have bonded with over the past couple of months through a series of emails, day in, day out, we often laugh, cry, share deep and meaningful moments through our emails to each others, and I met him doing work for a non-for-profit that fights day in and day out for us, the gays! I adore him and I feel I know this guy on such a level that he truly apperciates my soul for what it is, he gets me, and I get him. He knows I do what I do because of who I am and not for what I can get out of it...
He writes:
"JJ -
I have been reading through "motivational" emails i have saved over the
last few months as i come up with content for the ***** newsletter that
may finally happen.
I just wanted to thank you for being so enthusiastic and supportive to
me since day one.
It honestly makes an impact.
Keep smiling."

Deep
Thoughtful
Caring
Honest --
Thank you C for making me believe that this is worth it...
Being me
is
just
that
simple!

Come out

Today is National Coming Out Day!
So for all those out; stand proud
All of those yet to come out, know its okay to be you...
And for all of you who aren't gay...Show your support and stand tall and proud as a Straight Advocate of Gay Rights...We need you in our fight for Civil rights--so thank you from all of us.

I stand tall today
Proud
Making a difference
My voice
Just as powerful as yours
Use it
You Can
You have to
Just do it
Thanks guys, for everything, my gay and straight friends...
Im proud to have you! :O)

Fun

1. DO YOU SNORE?
Used to...when Im drunk and go to sleep, I usually do hehe

2. ARE YOU A LOVER OR A FIGHTER?
Lov-to-the-er

3. WHAT'S YOUR WORST FEAR?
Death

4. AS A KID, WERE YOU A LEGO MANIAC?
Nope...Lincoln Logs baby!

5. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF "REALITY" TV?
Loves it, except for Paris and Nicole...Oye!

6. DO YOU CHEW ON YOUR STRAWS?
Ya here and there

7. WERE YOU A CUTE BABY?
A-freakin-dorable...hahha or so I was told.

8. IS THE SINGLE LIFE FOR You?
Ya, its not bad, since I didnt get much play when I was a big fella, Im loving single life now and the attention, though I am a hopeless romantic so theres always a side of me that wants that someone special.

9. WHAT COLOR IS YOUR KEYBOARD?
Black and clear.

10. DO YOU SING IN THE SHOWER?
Yes hahaha...this morning I was singing Shine On BY Ryan cabrera...loves it!

11. HAVE YOU EVER BUNGEE JUMPED?
NO WAY! Freaked out of heights!

12. ANY SECRET TALENTS?
ha ha ha...who put this question in here...If I told you they wouldnt be SECRET talents anymore now would they!!

13. WHAT'S YOUR IDEAL VACATION SPOT?
Italy...'nough said!

14. WHAT IS THE LAST THING YOU BOUGHT?
Grande Vanilla Latte from Starbucks

15. CAN YOU SWIM?
Ya, but since I lost all my weight, I have to teach myself all the basics again, seeing I dont float as well now, I almost drowned last time I got into a pool haha

16. HAVE YOU SEEN THE MOVIE "DONNIE DARKO"?
DUH! Jake is so hott!

17. DO YOU GIVE A DAMN ABOUT THE OZONE?
Of course, I love Ms Earth, shes fabulous!

18. HOW MANY LICKS DOES IT TAKE TO GET TO THE CENTER OF A TOOSTIE POP?
3, I mean thats what the Owl told me anyways.

20. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN ON AN AIRPLANE?
Yes

21. ARE YOU A SINGLE CHILD?
No, 3 younger siblings, and 1 older, but we dont mention him haha

22. DO YOU PREFER ELECTRIC OR MANUAL PENCIL SHARPENERS?
Electronic, if that makes me lazy so be it!

23. WHAT'S YOUR STAND ON HUNTING?
One word: BAMBI!

24. IS MARRIAGE IN YOUR FUTURE?
I hope so...after going to my sisters wedding, I cant wait till one day to expierence something like that...warms my heart thinking about it.

25. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
I am ALWAYS told my handwriting is nice for a guys...what does that mean exactly!?

26. WHAT ARE YOU ALLERGIC TO?
Used to have horrible allergies, but now mostly just some bad stuff because of Cats...I seriously puff into an Asian decent. haha

27. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU SAID, "I LOVE U"
We are so NOT going there...

28. IS TUPAC STILL ALIVE?
Hell yes...I mean last time we spoke, he was in So-cal drinking a latte with Elvis, havent heard from him since, hope hes well.

29. DO YOU CRY AT WEDDINGS?
A blubbering wedding idiot- table for 1

30. HOW DO YOU LIKE YOUR EGGS?
D. All of the above

31. ARE BLONDES DUMB?
I love Blondes...espically when they are quiet...they are just fabulous. (hahaha sooo JK dont hate me!)

32. WHERE DOES THE OTHER SOCK END UP?
Last time I saw it, one some guys penis in a magazine.

33. WHAT TIME IS IT?
11:48 am PST

34. DO YOU HAVE A NICKNAME?
Woody, woodrina, JJ, JJ GAY, Gay Gay J, Bobe, Staypuff (thanks grannie), woodrow, woodster, woodbeck, wood, god I could go on forever...

35. IS MCDONALD'S DISGUSTING?
now that I really cant eat there food, I dont really miss it, but from time to time, can a bitch get a bacon, egg, and cheese biscuit! YUMM!!

36. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU WERE IN A CAR?
Last Friday, I was in a Cab, getting kicked out and yelled at cause I didnt have enough to pay for my ride home, I was wasted haha sorry cabbie!

37. DO YOU PREFER BATHS OR SHOWERS?
Showers for sure...love the way the water feels on me.

38. IS SANTA CLAUSE REAL?
Yes, Christmas is my favorite time of year...dont nobody fuck with my Santa Clause shit...Ill cut you! hahaha And yes Mrs. Clause is a big old fag hag!

39. DO YOU LIKE TO HAVE YOUR NECK KISSED?
MMHMMM

40. ARE YOU AFRAID OF THE DARK?
used to be more so then now, but ya from time to time, the dark is scary.

41. WHAT ARE YOU ADDICTED TO?
life and laughter

42. CRUNCHY OR CREAMY PEANUT BUTTER?
mmm both r good with some fluff, yummy!

43. CAN YOU CRACK YOUR NECK?
ya if needed!

44. HAVE YOU EVER RIDDEN IN AN AMBULANCE?
On to many occassions

45. HOW MANY TIMES HAVE YOU BRUSHED YOUR TEETH TODAY?
Once this morning

46. IS DRUG FREE THE WAY TO BE?
Yes!

47. ARE YOU A HEAVY SLEEPER?
No and yes...dont ask!

48. WHAT COLOR ARE YOUR EYES?
Blue with the longest eyelashes ever!

50. DO YOU LIKE YOUR LIFE?
My life is incredible; this includes the good, the bad, the amazing, the incredible, the horrible, all elements make my life what it is, the thing about life, is learning from every single thing that happens good and bad and move forward from there. Blessed I am with this skill...

51. WHO'S BETTER: STONE COLD OR THE ROCK?
The rock is way hot, but I do love that bad boy thing stone cold has got going on and since Ive been a wrestling fan since i was like 8, HBK is the SHIT!!

52. ARE YOU PSYCHIC?
Yes, from time to time, its odd, cant explain

53. HAVE YOU READ "CATCHER IN THE RYE"?
No

54. DO YOU PLAY ANY INSTRUMENTS?
Used to play Piano and I am wanting to take it up again and maybe learn guitar.

55. HAVE U EVER STOLEN MONEY?
Yes, I have, when I was younger. NOT proud of it.

56. CAN YOU SNOWBOARD?
Hell no, To nervous Id break something.

57. DO YOU LIKE CAMPING?
LOVES IT!

58. DO U SNORT WHEN U LAUGH?
HAHA...NO BUT MY FRIEND KEVIN DOES IT AND ITS HYSTERICAL!

59. DO YOU BELIEVE IN MAGIC?
Casue I hope you do...oh sorry, Umm yes I do, Magic surrounds us, I think it honestly plays a big part in the world today.

60. ARE DOGS A MAN'S BEST FRIEND?
Hell to the yes, i love lil wuppie duppies... hahaha all together now: SO GAY!

61. YOU BELIEVE IN DIVORCE?
I would if I could, since I cant, I wont

62. CAN YOU DO THE MOONWALK?
haha...aint nobody break shit down like me...OKKKK

63. DO YOU MAKE A LOT OF MISTAKES?
I do, difference is I learn from them.

64. IS IT COLD OUTSIDE TODAY?
No, beautiful out.

65. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE?
TGIF Potato Skin chips...MMMM

66. DO YOU WEAR NAIL POLISH?
No, well a clear coating when I get a manicure

67. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN KISSED?
ha ha ha...All of my friends right now are all collectively bursting out into laughter....WHATEVER BITCHES!

68. WHAT'S THE MOST ANNOYING TV COMMERCIAL?
Fanta...fuckin skinny singing bitches!

69. DO YOU SHOP AT AMERICAN EAGLE?
Love it!

70. FAVORITE SONG AT THE MOMENT?
Shine On by Ryan Cabrera or Ghost of You by My Chemical Romance

Nicknames

So most of you reading will either know me as either:
Woody

-OR-

JJ GAY

If you know me by one, Im sure you are wondering what the other name is all about.
Well heres a little insight for you....I am only doing this because people have been wondering...no alternative motives haha...

Woody- In 6th grade, I was the biggest kid in my class with the brightest and sweetest disposition, I used to be very active in all the sports and recess activities at school even though I could barely take part in them. One day, I was the last one left in dodge ball, my entire team was waiting to see if I would get OUT or if I would save the team by catching the ball...one after another, giant red balls came flying my way, dodging them left and right, my gym teacher starts a chant...WOODY WOODY WOODY WOODY, never hearing this before but really liking it, I faced my fears, and when the next big red ball came flying in my direction I turned and faced it and caught the ball, bringing my entire team back into the game. VICTORY WAS OURS!! I know you all thought it was gonna get dirty with the gym teacher or something but no, sorry, no real dirtyness behind the name, though I am known as Woody now-a-days for different reasons, hahaha... :O)

As for JJ GAY -
JJ GAY was born in July of 2002, when I made my debut on the FLY92 morning show as a regular weekly openly gay talent alongside morning show legends Brian, Ellen, and Big Ray. I started off doing Football picks and they told me to come up with a fun name, Brian wanted me to be called BIG GAY JOHN, which was so NOT cute, so we came up with some fun names, some of which were hysterical that werent used, like home-boy sexual or singular gay, but JJ GAY just rolled off your tounges and into the hearts of so many in Albany and surrounding areas. I miss doing radio there, the fans were great, the benefits were great, the people I worked with were amazing and so respectful of me. They knew I was going out there doing my thing, selling myself, as ME, nothing more nothing less. I worked hard for almost 3 years selling JJ GAY, he still goes back and does appearences and shows, and occassionally makes some time for some fun on air bantering...maybe one day he will make his way to the SF or CA airwaves...until then...I miss you Albany radio...keep the faith alive...Ill be back, one way or another. :O)

My sister and I at her wedding...She looks incredibly beautiful! 

Rosie and I...What a feeling to meet your idol...Changed my life, she did. Thank you Rosie! 

Back

Well Im Back, Being inspired by Rosie Odonnell and her very active online blog. I have decided to take it up again and write very actively in it. This means I am going to finally do what I have been wanting to do and be open and really talk about my feelings, my thoughts, the things that provoke me, pretty much as open as it comes to you all, the people reading, whether I know you or not, I want this venue to express my inner thoughts and feelings that we dont normally share on a daily basis.

Stay tuned for some good stuff...

In my own words....

Been awhile

So its been awhile since Ive posted and I figured I should update you some of to whats been up. Simply enough life has thrown many fast balls my way this past month or so...Ive learned so much from so many, Ive expierenced new things and feelings I have never felt before. I completed the 10k AIDS WALK on July 17th which was incredible enough but to then celebrate the 2 yr anniversary of my surgery on the next day well it was breathtaking. I have bonded with many friends and left several behind, but one thing I have learned is all of this means nothing, all of this is just this, we are who we are from all of that, so we as humans cant concentrate on that but rather on who we are...because that happens anyways, anyhow, and all the time. I am happy. I really truly am. I like it and now Im going to enjoy it.

What I learned

Pride comes in many shapes, colors, sizes and feelings. YOu can have pride no matter who you are, gay or straight, but being gay and being apart of such an amazing expierence as San Francisco Gay Pride is really altering for a person. To be surrounded by thousands of people who live the same lifestyle as you and go through the same things I do and surrounded by those who may not be gay but respect us and love us nonetheless is simply amazing. I did some major volunteering for the Mayors VIP pride party and I didnt see the parade or get to wonder all that much but I still felt like I lived the best pride expierence I have ever lived.
Love
Joy
Smiles
Happiness
...shared by all--
was enough for me anyday!

Pride...The beginning

Its now officially the weekend...
Not just any weekend...
But GAY PRIDE WEEKEND IN SAN FRANCISCO!!!!!!!!!

HOT TAMALE...
Details to come...

STAY TUNED! :O)

Innocence

I stand on the underground train heading home after a day of galvanting around and visiting people and enjoying the beauty of the sun and cloud free day. Over the sounds of my Ipod Shuffle I hear a child laughing...I drop one earbud from an ear and look over and smile. There is a small asian child, ruffly about 3 yrs old, sitting with his Grandfather, and laughing at the games his grandfather plays with him with his hand, swaying it back and forth, closer and closer to his face, occassionally grabbing his nose, his laugh and youth inspires the grandfather to let his inner child play along. The smile came apon my face because of what I remember of the simple things that thrilled us so much growing up and how now life is so much more complicated and how easily we can get caught up in it all, but how we have to remain grounded and take a second....
Look around us...
Declare what's amazing...
Reflect in it's beauty...
And just smile...
And blame it on our youth.

Your smile is just the 3 yr old in you coming out and letting you know its okay to just be you in this world...
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

To JC : When you look deep enough inside yourself, pushing back everything, and really discovering who you are. It gets easier, peel back the layers and enjoy lifes small and wonderous beauties...you are amazing and will be even more when you realize that. Your not sugar, when you get wet you wont melt...Your not glass, when you fall you wont shatter...I love you and take one step at a time, it will all come together...I promise.

Lady Bunny @ Trannyshack!

Ok Everyone...Lets kick off San Francisco Pride the right way!
Cause Shes back....

LADY BUNNY LIVE @ Trannyshack this upcoming TUESDAY June 21st!!
$8 cover, Event cohosted by Heklina...
399 9th st @ Harrison at The Stud

NYC Native Drag Queen and Amazing DJ, MC, TV & Movie star, the fabulous Lady Bunny is hysterical and a good friend of mine...CANT wait to see her...and you all should come to. Im trying to get a group of us to all go together...Let me know if you wanna go, maybe we will pregame at my place and then go.

HOLLA At me if you are down...
If you wanna have a good time and laugh your fuckin ass off...This is for you!

Check out LADYBUNNY.net or TRANNYSHACK.com for more details!

HAPPY PRIDE EVERYONE!!

Part Expert Kisser

You're a kissing pro, but it's all about quality and not quantity You've perfected your kissing technique and can knock anyone's socks off And you're adaptable, giving each partner what they crave When it comes down to it, your kisses are truly unforgettable

Part Passionate Kisser

For you, kissing is about all about following your urges If someone's hot, you'll go in for the kiss - end of story You can keep any relationship hot with your steamy kisses A total spark plug - your kisses are bound to get you in trouble

What Kind of Kisser Are You?

A-

You Have A Type A- Personality

A- You are one of the most balanced people around Motivated and focused, you are good at getting what you want You rule at success, but success doesn't rule you. When it's playtime, you really know how to kick back Whether it's hanging out with friends or doing something you love! You live life to the fullest - encorporating the best of both worlds

Do You Have a Type A Personality?

Quoted

S.F. officials censure gay club for bias
Christopher Curtis, PlanetOut Network

published Wednesday, June 15, 2005

San Francisco's Board of Supervisors unanimously passed a resolution Tuesday urging city and state agencies to take action against Badlands, a gay nightclub that a city commission determined was guilty of discriminating against African Americans.

In April, San Francisco's Human Rights Commission ruled after a 10-month investigation that Les Natali, the club's owner, required multiple forms of identification for some African-American customers, used discriminatory hiring practices and enforced a selective dress code that varied with the customer's race.

Although the Board of Supervisors cannot take punitive action against the club, it urged the city attorney, the California Department of Alcoholic Beverage Control, the California Department of Fair Employment and Housing and the San Francisco Entertainment Commission "to impose penalties to the fullest extent of the law to ensure accountability for discrimination."

If California's Department of Alcoholic Beverage Control determines the club violated state discrimination laws, Badlands could lose its liquor license.

Natali's lawyer, Paul Melbostad, told the San Francisco Chronicle, "This is a shameless act by the board and it's legally meaningless."

Melbostad then accused the organization that pursued the case against the club, And Castro for All, as "acting like a vigilante group."

"All it shows is that the members of the board were afraid that if they didn't vote for the resolution, And Castro For All would accuse them of being racist," Melbostad said.

Don Romesburg, an organizer for And Castro For All, laughed when asked about the "vigilante" label during a conversation with the PlanetOut Network.

"Clearly, we've constantly worked in the confines of the law," Romesburg said. "It's Les Natali that's been operating outside of the law."

"We're delighted that the leadership of the city government supports the finding -- a clear pattern of discrimination -- and we hope that city and state agencies are commensurate," Romesburg said.

Romesburg said he hoped the bar would lose its ability to serve liquor. "According to state guidelines for moral turpitude, license revocation seems appropriate," he said. "If that means his employees will be out of a job because of Les Natali's discrimination, then that's something they need to bring up to their employer. The problem is not that racial discrimination has been brought to public attention -- the problem is that discrimination occurred in the first place."

Badlands employees, who asked to remain anonymous, told the PlanetOut Network that racism was not the problem. They insist the problem started with a few rowdy customers who were either not allowed entry or removed from the club and decided to punish Badlands by alleging racism.

Mark Lock, an African-American Badlands customer, described the situation with the club as "a double-edged sword."

"My perspective is: whatever. I'm from the South. When you grow up around it, you don't let it let you stop your life. But if they can prove what he did, they should penalize him," Lock said, admitting he would continue going to the club.

Johnathan Woodbeck, a Badlands customer who is Caucasian, said, "I don't think the bar should be shut down. It definitely should be thought out a little bit more. But then, I'm not for discrimination either."

Change

What are we afraid of as humans when it comes to change? Change comes in many shapes, colors, and sizes and differs from person to person but for some reason we all have a similar reaction to it. At first we are afraid, timid, or struck by this so called change but it’s at this point where we decide where we go from here. We either embrace the change or it ceases to affect us and we continue on with our lives. My question about change comes about for many different reasons but the main reason being why don’t those who want change, or need change, to better there current situation, why don’t they take it and run. Why NOT embrace it and change for this better. You’d be happier; you’d experience new things, or is that the problem? Are you afraid of these things, are you afraid of feeling new feelings and experiencing new experiences. Well don’t be. Life is not glorified without it, life can not and will not be fulfilled for you until you take these changes and morph them into exactly what you need to make your life worth living. Life is too short to leave change behind. Open the book and turn the pages, write your own story, make your own movie, and open your heart, your mind, your body, and your soul to this world, to this change, and you will forever be just that…changed.

Love

After attending the GLAAD Media Awards this weekend and seeing all those couples I tend to wonder where it is for me...I mean have I not been patient? Do I not get to feel that intimacy that they do? Do I not deserve someone special in my life? In a society based around appearence, most relationships are based off that instant attraction. Yes, I do agree there has to be a physical something that brings you into that person, BUT is there a need for it to be based around it, why is it most everything we do when searching for MR or MS Right consist of us being so stereotypical and ONLY being into someone for there body or there looks. Lets take that next step right off the bat and realize that shit, only is nice in the beginning if you WANT something to work and if you WANT something to last its gotta be about more, theres gotta be more that keeps you sucked into that person, Ive heard over and over again that Ill find someone when I least expect it and that I cant go out looking for it. Well ya no what, Im not looking for it but Id like it to come to me, I have alot to offer, dont I. I take care of myself, Im smart, funny, successfull, well driven, and a joy to be around hahaha god this sounds so desperate and pertenscious, but YOU get what Im saying.
My point to this ramble is this fellas...Why not take a chance? Take that giant leap out of the usual perverbiale box and do what we wanna do instead of what society says what we should do. I dont mind waiting for Mr Right because I know when I do find him, it will be well worth it.

So wherever you maybe, Im waiting. Open Armed. The love I dream of. Chills run over. Butterflies surface. And. I Smile.

Baby

UPDATE:

My sister Sonja is having a GIRL!!!

IM GETTING A NIECE!!! YAY!!!!!

Awhile

Its been awhile since I posted on here but thats obviously because things have been super busy. I just got back in from a rather quick trip to Upstate NY to visit everyone and to help kick off the Gay Pride in Albany by hosting WATERSTOCK at Waterworks Pub, featuring the areas best drag queens and the amazing Lady Bunny. The show was a huge success and alot of fun to do. A good friend of mine and a killer drag queen Penny Larceny was retiring and it was her last show, so of course her and I pulled out all the stops and rocked the house with a huge opener that I dont think people were expected.

Going home for me is always an interesting expierence. I am so incredibly happy to see everyone and by the time Im leaving I am pratically ready to be diagnosed with depression and put on Zoloft. I really feel something amazing when I am around my friends in NY. Its just so comfortable like nothing is expected of me, I can just be whatever and its all the same to them. I love them for that. I cant really tell them enough how much they mean to me, the ones know who they are.

I did realize though that I apparently have to stop trying with some friends. I try my best to keep in touch with everyone as much as I can being 3000 miles away but somehow even when I am a half hour away or in the same city, still I get nothing from some people. I call, they dont call me back. I try my best to see them and no one makes an equal attempt. So to all of you that honestly can say to me you miss me or you cant wait to see me, where were you? I was home for only a few days and I called or you knew I was in town, did my phone ring with a callback or a call in general...NO! Its quite sad when you have to beg people to call you back, I love you all but Ive had enough of trying to please everyone. I am only one person, so if you expect for me to continue to value our friendships, put forth just a little bit more effort so I can feel its worth it. Im done with going out of my way for people who wouldnt or wont do the same for me.

I was told I was conceited. ME! Okay, so maybe yes I talk about myself alot with people, but thats ONLY because of the following reasons:
1. How do you expect to hold a conversation whether in person or over the phone if the conversation begins with me asking you how things are and you say ... ok...and thats it, logically I will try to make conversation with you by talking about things going on with me, its called conversation last time I checked, isnt that how it works people. If you arent talking, thats your lose, Im here to listen, to be your shoulder or whatever, so fuckin speak up.
and
2. I have alot to be proud of and since I may not see you all the time, I have to inform you of whats going on, if you were a friend you would be welcoming of the conversation and wouldnt consider mylife VS. your life a fuckin competition, Im not telling you the things I tell you to rub them in your face, your my friend, Im just as interested in hearing about what you fuckin ate for dinner or whatever you did over the past weekend as you are about whatever Im doing, or so I thought.
Life is to short for bullshit people, get over yourself so you can move on and enjoy the good shit in life. If your not happy where you are or with what your doing...then fuckin do something about it. Enough sugarcoating the bullshit and do what you want to do no matter what it is. Your friends and family, if they are real, will love you no matter what, they arent going anywhere...
Take it from me I know...

From my shoulder to yours...Lets be friends :O)

Till next time...MUAH!

Photos

So I added a few photos down below there for you to peep at but for more photos, including ones of my new place check out...

http://photos.yahoo.com/JJGAYFLY92

and check out the updated...

JJGAY.com

HOT TAMALE!!

WATERSTOCK @ WATERWORKS!!

For all of you in or around UPSTATE NY...

Get ready for Albanys BIGGEST GAY Pride Kickoff PARTY EVER!

WATERSTOCK
Friday June 3rd
Party Starts at 11 pm

Featuring...
Mama, Penny Larceny, and Storm
Hosted by None other then the Capital Region's Fabulous Voice of the Gay's... JJ GAY, in for this special Pride kick off from San Francisco.
Then the fabulous one takes the stage, none other then Ms. LADY BUNNY!!! Last time she was at Waterworks she blew us out of the water, and sold the house out. Make sure you get your tickets now!!

THIS IS AN 18+ EVENT!! 18 to Party, 21+ to drink!!

Tickets in Advance are $10, day of $15
All Proceeds to Benefit the CDGLCC.

Check out JJGAY.com and WATERWORKSPUB.com for more info.

For more info about Lady bunny, check out LADYBUNNY.net.

My homegirl Ms Lady Bunny, will also be appearing here in San Francisco on June 21st at Trannyshack...see you all there!

Me looking so fabulous in...umm a hole!  

OOO Perrtttyy! 

At KFOG Kaboom with Kelly and Brian 

My Girl Allison and I 

My Peoples...Love you guys! 

Finale

Wanna see something hysterical...You may get a kick out of this!
Check out STOREWARS.org
Enough Said!

So Carrie won! Good for her, I havent watched this season religiously but I have seen many performances via the website or TV recaps, and I taken away by Carries voice, makes me drift, which is something healthy and good for music and for sales. I think both Carrie and BO are extremely talented and will have careers once this show end, no matter who the winner is. Though Carrie is more sellable to a wider audience I think Bo would and could make a living at being a performer and signing with Clive Davis, who is showing interest either way, winner or loser, would be a GREAT thing for him.

Ellen sweeped the Daytime Emmys. That bitch can dance! Loves it! Just what we need, A lil Ellen a day keeps the doctor away! :O)

So 6 days until I head home for a fabulous time. I really cant wait. The show at WaterWorks is called WATERSTOCK and will be hosted by me, JJ GAY, and setting the preshow on fire will be Mama, Storm, and Penny Larceny. Penny is retiring from the drag scence in Albany, so this show will be her last, making it all that much more special. Penny has done show after show and has dedicated many hours performing for free. Penny is a professional and a pleasure to work with, Thank you Penny for doing my going away party like no one else could have. I love you with all my heart and you will be missed! So The show will be ended by The amazing Lady Bunny tearing it up on stage...I cant wait!

Keep your fingers Crossed, my bio and resume has ended up in the hands of the programming dept at Energy 92.7 FM here in San Fran, to get an idea of how amazing this station is check out, www.energy927fm.com
FIERCE!!

Oh ya by the way, I got some surprises in store for everyone at the show...You guys aint seen nuffin yet!
HOLLA!

Jim

So Jim Verraros was on American Idol season 1. I thought maybe he was family but wasnt quite sure. NOW...Not only has he come out, in a big way, hes one of the stars of one of the funniest independent gay films I have ever seen entitled, Eating Out. HYSTERICAL. It was shown here in San Francisco, a few months ago and it was so funny I was crying I was laughing so hard. The writing, the wit, the acting, the humor; all impressive. Jim was fabulous and of course it ends the way we all hoped it would, well those of us who are romantics. But my boy, JIM, has released his debut CD and I bought it tonight to support him, as well should support the openly gay entertainers and performers. HELLO!! They are representing us and we should do what we can to help them out.

Working in the gay community as an entertainer is amazing sometimes. I know from being very popular on the radio in Upstate NY and doing event after event and meeting people you have made laugh or cry. People who have taken the time out to send you an email to let you know how truly greatful they are for you just being you day after day or week after week on the radio. Its an amazing feeling being adored by people and being respected for being you and for just having fun with it.

Thank you to all those who have supported me for being me. I thank FLY92 for launching JJ GAY, well I mostly thank Brian, Ellen, and Big Ray. For believing in me and taking a chance when no one else would. They are still missed by the listeners of FLY, hopefully those big wigs realized what they let go. But again, Thanks to them for taking the risk they did and thanks to the people who listened every week and who supported JJ GAY through and through...

Hopefully its only on to bigger and...well nothing can be better then there love...
Simply nothing...

KaBoom

I went to the KFOG (a radio station here in SF) KaBoom last night with Brian, Kelly, and Venis. The KaBoom is a huge free concert that starred the Wallflowers and ended at about 9pm with a HUGE, when I say BIG I mean BIG, fireworks display that went along with the music that the radio station played. It was an amazing show that blew me away. Things are always just done so much bigger in bigger cities, lord knows Upstate NY's fireworks looked like a light snack compared to the monster 7 course dinner that SF's fireworks supplied. Watching the fireworks and being in the state of awe, it sorta takes things and makes your mind put them into perspective as each light hits the thoughts race through your mind, as each explosion is set off, you discover something new or sad about yourself, it can be quite the discovering expierence. Of course I maybe looking way to much into, which more then likely I am but think about it just for a second...when your watching fireworks, what races through your mind, besides the general beauty thoughts of it, what else is there?

I told him that I wrote about him in my blog. I sent him an email of what was wrote in it. Im not sure how he will react but we will see. I have to be honest with him, its the best policy.

Havent heard back from Johnny in awhile, I hope all is well, I know he has been finishing up school but he apparently has just been to busy to call and say hi, hope he is okay...I miss him tremendously.

Lady Bunny and I chatted yesterday. She and I are both excited for Waterstock @ Waterworks coming up on June 3rd. She is also coming here to SF which is going to be a fabulous time towards the end of June, I cant wait to see her.

No other major thoughts or revelations, just that life is good right now. I cant wait to see everyone when I go home...Think about it everyday. All I know is that Jen, Kim, and I soooooo have a date with the cage at WW...HA!

Till next time...

To much

I sometimes feel like I talk about my life and myself to much. Im sure some of you get sick of it, but I only do it because Im sorta proud of what I have accomplished in my life. In no way am I saying I am better than anyone else, or that I deserve any more or any less then any of you but I guess sometimes its to much, to much as in the way people take me, or perceive me. There are people who consider me an inspiration and who consider my way of thinking honorable.

I receieved this email today. I will not disclose who sent it but it was just so moving I had to share:

I don't know if you really know how much I appreciate you as a friend. It's just that we've all been too busy this semester to really hang out and have some good talks.

You've taught me how to be stronger, Woody.. how not to let other people make you miserable. Don't get me wrong.. I'm still my shy sensitive self.. but seeing you and the way you remain so positive about life has taught me that I can't just waste my days away worrying about shit. Just gotta keep doing what you love and move on past the people that try and bring u down.

I'm a better person for that.. and I cannot thank you enough for how much your positive attitude has helped me. Your tough love may have hurt at times.. but you know what? I'm so happy to see life through yours and other eyes. It shows me just how lucky I actually am. So I've learned to suck it up and roll with the punches.

SO THANK YOU FOR THAT, M'LOVE!!!

I don't mean to bring up bad memories.. but I need to be specific with you. I just feel like you deserve to be thanked for this... The whole situation that happened with ________. You were there for me. You listened to me cry on the phone and then you told me not to worry - told me to get over it and that I deserved more. You saw how blind I was, and you opened my eyes to who he really was and what he was doing to me.. You weren't afraid to tell me the facts... and thanks to you my relationship with __________ is so much better. I feel so empowered now. I know that I am strong with or without someone. If it doesnt work with him - then it's ok. There will always be tomorrow.. and there will always be my friends. I have learned to trust and to noT be afraid to communicate.... OK enough of that!

I live life in a whole new way thanks to u, darling. I really hope we can hang out a lot more this summer. I learn so much from you.. and I hope it never ends. ;D
You are one of the most beautiful people in the world, Woody. To me you're just another one of those angels sent down to show me and others just how beautiful life can be.

THANK YOU SO MUCH...INSPIRATION TO ME THIS SERVES...
NOT MUCH MORE TO SAY AFTER THAT...
ALL MY LOVE SWEETNESS!

Rosie O

Rosie O...
Best Blog around (Celebirty Blog that is!)

http://www.rosie.com

Home

Home is where the heart is...
But what if you heart is in many different home.
Clarifying this statement...I mean my home is here...in the literal sense and in the
"heart sense" but my home is also in NY, because part of my heart lives there.

I miss NY.
Cant wait to visit-
Upstate NY.
Good ole Amsterdam, NY 12010
Or Albany, NY...dont know the zip

I adore it. Althought all I wanted was OUT when I was there, it truly serves as an inspiration for me. The support and love I feel whenever I am there is truly amazing. Though since I've left I have not kept in touch with as many people that I would like, being swamped all the time makes it hard to call everyone, though I do kinda feel ignored, seeing my phone isnt always ringing off the hook either. But, in the end it doesnt matter who calls who because still; I do feel a love for them still. I still do feel as though when I see them I can pick right back up where I left off.

I miss Jeff, my lil Vitamin man, we dont nearly talk as much as we used to or IM as much as we used to, clearly because we are both so busy, school and FT work here, and FT work and now boyfriend with him. There are obviously obstacles that keep us from talking more. But the connection I have with him, thats on a deeper level, keeps me attached. I know at anytime I can call him, chat with him, and get the loving advice he is always ready to give, or the laughs I enjoy, or the conversation you have as if I was your next door neighbor you ran into in the hallway. Jeff just got manager at his store, he takes over June 1st...Im proud of you kid, All my love.

My roommate told me he is making dinner a week for Sunday for a bunch of us in honor or me moving in. Like one big happy family...ahh how nice it is to hear that again.

Family. I love it.

W & W

Work is such a nessecary evil. Most of us will work 40 hours and then some every single week of our lives for the rest of our lives just to get by. To make sure the bills are paid, to make sure we have food in our mouths, to make sure our families are taken care of. Its incredible to me just how backwards society is today. Mostly because of the fabulous president we have who would rather see the richer get rich and the poorer get well poorer...I mean lets look at the facts people. We have a record high deficit now in the US that has happened over the past 5 years, when just 5 years ago our society economically was the best it has ever been at. Baby Bush has made a huge social decline in the unemployment rate and in peoples perception of what our govt does for us. Why on a daily basis are we questioning where our money goes and if they are taking so much for "taxes" how come we as citizens of the US are not reeping the benefits that citizens of other countries get. How about unified health care...jesus you know how much we pay for that every month and in other countries they get it just because they are a ciizen of that country.

I wonder often about where we will be in a few years from now, I fear the worst is yet to come, we thought 9-11 was horrible, I think we are honestly headed to an even worse time. Though I care about my life and those of every citizen in this country, I worry most about those who work and dedicate there lives for us and for a gov't that is so greedy and contrived. They do what they do for freedom and they dont even realize they are helping destroy the very thing they are fighting for.

I pray for the soliders who risk there lives for me and I pray for Baby Bush to wake up and realize what this country needs...Unification NOT Segregation!

I think we would get along...If I wasnt a liberal gay democrat!

You

Star Wars was visually amazing....The acting could of been a hell of alot better but visually it was superb. The sum up of the story worked in all aspects and I enjoyed the Yoda fight scenes once again...Go see it, come on, I mean it IS the last one, its well worth it...

To you, you may only be one person, but to someone else, you maybe everything they need. I enjoy you, your company, your humor, your silence, your eyes, your smile, your voice, your laugh, I enjoy the way you say somethings cute, I enjoy your realism, I enjoy our talks, I enjoy the things that you dont get to see often enough in people...Feelings are harsh and real...Im to afraid of them.
In due time I will tell you...
In due time...
But for now, you may not be ready for them, and I cant handle that rejection...
When its meant, its meant.

Let the force be with you...till next time ;O)

So...

So I turned down the internship at the Film Arts Foundation today for a number of reason but reasons I do not want to discuss...Its just better this way.

So today was my last class...Im all done...My first year of film school is over with. It amazes me that its almost a year since I moved here to San Francisco. Doesnt really seem like it but it obviously is. I really have fallen in love with SF, yes there was a point where I wasnt happy but it wasnt here that made me unhappy it was myself and the loneliness I felt after returning from NY, where I was constantly around people I loved, where here I had a hard time making quality friends, ones who didnt talk bad about me, ones who didnt judge me, ones who respected me and vice versa. I believe theres good in all people, hence why I get hurt most of the time. I discovered alot about people I was hanging around with out around here. I learned I was comprimising who I was to fit in, when all I have ever done was be myself and not give a shit of what anyone thought.

No more pretending...
No more lying...
No more of them!

I did it because I had to...I still talk to some of them and I do like all of them as individuals, but together, its ridiculous, judging others, being "bitches", was apparently what it was all about. I to will be the first to say Im not perfect. I have my faults. Im not beautiful. I dont have perfect skin, or teeth, or hair. I have my issues just like everyone else in the world...
But the differences is, I embrace my differences and accept them for and as of part of who I am, where they judge others instead of accepting others for who they are.

I love me. I can honestly say that. First time in my life I've been able to...I wonder if they can say the same...

Till next time...
See you NYers in 11 days!! :O)

Today

Wow, talk about being creatively tired...how about 9 straight hours of critiques of student short films...it was final film presentation day and it was seriously exhausting...I am impressed by the work that comes from my collegues but some of it is just trash. I mean lets be real, if after 15 weeks you still cant grasp reverse angles you will NOT make it in this business. You have to pick it up quick and get the basic concepts to really be good at this. I find myself picking up alot better then I thought I would. I can still honestly say I have to learn alot more to really get a grasp on the filmmaking world but I am definitly on my way there.

My film was shown several times over the past couple of weeks and the reactions I got were overall good. I had a student tell me she thought it was a very moving piece which is exactly what I wanted. For someone to feel something from the ART you make is exactly what you mean to do. I did my best on my film and thats all I can ever say, nothing more, nothing less.

I decided Im going to do a fun little project and shoot a mini short documentary on myself and my life in NY when I go home for the few days Im going for. I am excited by this because my friends here can see my friends from home and see what its like for me there, so in the sense of real world I will be followed, completely uncensored...
Should be fun!

Im off to Tower to check out some new CD's with Paul...Hes a fabulous roomie...Tata!

Blizzard

So I'm just chatting with one of the best friend I could ever ask for, Blanche aka George...and we were discussing a day where we sat around, watched movies, and ate all day, we had some fabulous people with us, and it literally was one of the funniest days ever, not doing much, just being together and enjoying one another company. These events make you truly realize who your friends are. Not having to impress or "be on" and having people truly enjoy being around you...its inspiring and at the same time its meaningful. Moments I will forever remember and cherish. Thank you guys, you know who you are...you take my belief in miracles to a whole new level in just being you, friends I could never replace.

This is posted on the CDGLCC website...check it out for more details about Albany Pride '05!
http://www.cdglcc.org/

Waterstock

Come out and enjoy an evening with Peter, David and crew celebrating Pride Week. Dance the night away reliving the Woodstock era. The evening will feature Lady Bunny and will be hosted by JJ Gay. The last time Lady Bunny joined the crew at Waterworks they sold out, so be sure to get your tickets in advance! Must be at least 21 years old with photo ID to attend.
10 PM. $10 in advance, $15 at the door. Waterworks Pub, 76 Central Ave., Albany, NY

See you all there...

Until next time...MUAH!

11:07

Watching Roseanne...What a fabulous show. Something so wrong about how interesting this family is, the white trash aspect is so appealing to me as a viewer, partically because in a way I think the Connors are like most family, unique qualities that each member of the family has. I miss the Connors...

Im finally feeling somewhat settled. I am pretty much unpacked but I just have so much stuff that its hard to find a place for everything when you move into a room ,no matter how big it is. I adore the new place. The room is very large, with high ceilings, the walls are a peach color with green trim. Its quite cute. Im up online and having cable again is a blessing, how could I have been living without the food network, ABC, the WB, and BRAVO!!

Only a few weeks till I come home for a few days, I really cant wait. I miss my friends from NY in a way that I cant quite explain. I encourage you guys to come visit, so lets chat!

Im off to bed, only 3 days left of classes...WOOHOO!! My sketching class is over after 2morrow...Thank god! I want this semester to be over...

OHHH I forgot to tell you guys, I had the interview for an internship for the summer at the Film Arts Foundation here in SF, an organization that helps new and upcoming filmmakers financially and otherwise to make films, they offer classes and workshops, and thrive on its members. I got called Friday after luckily enough running into the director as the conclusion of my interview on Thursday, who apparently fell in love with me, and offered me the spot on friday! YAY! So something else to look forward to...
So far...
June 2nd-7th - Back to NY
June 3rd - Waterstock at Waterworks...Hosted by JJ Gay with special appearence by Lady Bunny!
June 11th - GLAAD Media Awards...VIP style!
July 4th - Santa Cruz Trip
August 27th- My 24th Birthday and WICKED LIVE!!

New Chapter...New Journal

So today I will officially be living in my new home, I found an amazing space with 2 guys who are exactly what I can deal with on a regular basis and 2 guys that are clearly going to be some great friends. Brad and Paul are both professional older (NOT OLD, just older then me) who have clearly had there share of lifes twists and turns, but remain focused and strong minded as well as caring, I move in today.

I was setting up my room and moving stuff in yesterday and I just felt so at piece, it just hasnt been like that for me here in the past couple of months. When I was home for break I really did realize just how much I missed everyone there, so coming back after being there for 6 weeks...well it wasnt so easy. But here I sit last night, on my new bed, in my new home, realizing just how much I have going for me. It wasnt until Paul said something to me about being "an inspiration to his friends" that made me realize this. Paul has friends who have HIV. They consider me an inspiration because apparently my story gives them hope for the good in life. I almost burst into tears when he told me this and I really was touched.

My mother and I had a cryfest last week on the phone for related reason. She finally told me how proud she was of me, something that didnt often enough come out of her mouth. It felt good to hear that from her, it felt good that she realized all I have overcome to be where I am at. I thank her now for being an inspiration to me, to be something I can and will never be, she is a good person with alot of bad things in her life. I pray for her when I go to church, I pray she feels better physically and most importantly mentally, hopefully she will one day be the mom I loved to cook with, go grocery shopping with, or just sit and talk with...one day.

I decided to start a new blog because of this new chapter I feel I am starting with moving. This new location will inturn open new doors for me for meeting new people, seeing new places, and expierening new things...so heres to the chapter of 755 14th street!

Till next time...All of it!